Another day pass

Another day pass. Wasted and meaningless.
You once told me, live happily and meaningfully.
I guess I don't deserve these.
It had been such a long time that I  didn't feel happiness or live joyfully.
All I had been doing now is get drunk, computer games, eat and repeat the same sequence all over again.
A bulb is useless without power supply right?
It will not shine brightly unless you turn it on.
Well, you did turn me on but you turn me off when you left.
There is not even a dim light glow in me. All I can feel now is darkness and loneliness.
I mighy have friends. But they ain't not you.  You are the only people that changed who I am.
Now? I don't even know who I am.
Can life be even worst?
Yes it can,  I believe my life is in hell ever since you left.
Sounds so stupid when I say just came back to heaven from hell and into hell again.
Should I glad that this incident happen so that you release in your struggling with me? Or should I be unhappy when you left and left me alone suffer?
A monster always deserve to be beaten right?
Like what your family said, I can still remember every single words.
But still, you have a great family and I respect that.
What will happen to me? I neither can forsee myself nor stand up and move on.
I miss you =)