what should i do?

Well, its almost 4 months and more after you left me,
Kept telling myself, "LIFE GOES ON"
now there is this girl who treat me so good,
But i can't move on because of you,
You are still living in my heart....
every single piece of you, even it had break into pieces scattered on the floor...
i know, why am i writing this?
who cares right? i'm just nobody in your life anymore
i should probably F*** OFF and hide some where in the shadow
well, perhaps i'm am still living in that shadow
the shadow where you and i ever being happy.
So now, i still wondering, what should i do?
All i ever plan for my future is with you in it
carrier, family, life?
Do i really need it anymore?
HOPE MEANS NOTHING TO ME...
I SUCK KENNETH CHEONG, I REALLY SUCK IN EVERYTHING!!!
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Feeling so wrong for her, should i go on with this life or should i take courage to treat her better?
Ms. YX, sorry... Even you has a boyfie, i'm still sticking around with you...
I really shouldn't do that... But you really treat me very good...